Straight A's and exams are all passed.

Whoopie.

Today was the last day, and I got my yearbook signed to the brim. Hmm, lots of people to call over the summer.

Summer school for my high school will begin two weeks from now. Joy. Optional summer school will be so much fun.

But the good news includes the fact that FSC is only three days away! I'll be there near the opening time so watch out for me~ :]

It's going to be Kanda again because I haven't decided on a new cosplay yet...

That's about it for now.

It's been more then a month since I updated, sorry.

Anyway, it's official. Most guys are just full of bullshit these days. I've never done anything to this jerk, and he has the nerve to 'joke around' when it's not funny. Whatever, he better not talk to me again.

Putting aside the crappy news, our school put on Bye Bye Birdie Wednesday~ I helped out by playing live music with my violin along with my friend who played the piano. We got great seats too since we were right in front of the stage.

School will be over soon, thankfully. Just another seven days to go until summer break, and that reminds me, FSC is in another ten days... Alas, finals are still in the way. -frowns-

I'm grateful for three day weekends.

Well, it sucks. Sort of.

Yesterday was a planned trip to the beach for a BBQ~ It was great until this old, rotten lady come to the door and starts screaming at me about one of our cars blocking the sidewalk. My mom went out to explain that we were allowed to do so since we talked to the guy in charge of that already.

The fucking bitch won't listen and rudely cast my mom off.

A little while later, we were ready to head to the beach when we saw our neighbor, who heard the obnoxious woman, and we found out that the car blocking the sidewalk was keyed.

KEYED.

We confronted her later when she was coming back from the clubhouse, and my cousin told her it doesn't take brains to walk around (and he's right). She said she was allergic to ants.

...

Not every patch of grass has ants, and people are allergic to ant bites, not the ants themselves. SHE WAS WEARING SHOES, SHE'LL BE FINE.

Then once again, my mom (too nice to snap like my cousin, dad, and me) tried to explain and once she mentioned our car getting keyed, she turned nice.

Obvious, much?

She said that a tree branch must have done it- NO FUCKING WAY WILL A TREE BRANCH SCRATCH A CAR ALMOST THREE FEET ACROSS THE HOOD OF A CAR UNLESS MY DAD WAS DRUNK WHILE DRIVING HOME FROM HIS TEACHING JOB.

Oh, and once the police got into the conversation, she was outta there.

But we went to the beach anyway and still had a good time (my cousin was the only one in the water). I went swimming for the first time after my surgery today~ I can still swim as well as before (but I get tired easily)!

Got a new game, Okami~ Best thing in a long time, really.

And I heard that she badgered the previous residents about their lawn. THEY WERE ABOUT 90. GIVE IT A BREAK, BITCH.

New dragon egg things. Kind of fun.
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Hatsume Fair was awesome~ I cosplayed Yuu Kanda from D. Gray Man and won first place in the intermediate division... :3 My second cosplay was a grand success!

Saw a ton of my friends there, and I only spent four dollars on a poster. :D That's a huge difference from the $60+ I spent at Mizucon~

My frown sucks but whatever. :] I'll be taking more detailed and better photos

Hey, if you haven't read the latest Naruto, Bleach, or D. Gray Man chapter, then don't read, ne?

SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER



Naruto: Tsunade's crystal has been destroyed, and Yamamoto is going to the rescue? Looks like Pein still has some crack super Mary-Sue powers up his sleeve.

And I save the best new for last... HINATA IS NOT DEAD. YET. And Sakura could be the one to save her.

Bleach: Ichigo got his ass kicked, and now he's going to die. With Orihime and Ishida watching. And Number 4 has some issues. You don't blow a damn hole in the place where someone's heart is. Maybe we should get him to see a therapist.

DGM: IT'S FINALLY BAAAAAAAAAACK. -jumps for joy- The little bratty kid can now possess akuma and turn them into... innocence? C'mon, Hoshino, please explain what this means for our heroes?

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So with other things, school is a bitch as always, and I'm still sick. That's it then.

...

Go. Do something more productive. LEAVE.

<rant>

This past week has been absolute torture.

It turns out that I was sick on Saturday night, and so I ate some Tylenol crap...

Monday, first thing that happened when I got to school, went to the nurse, BEEP, YOU HAVE A FEVER. GO HOME. -twitches-

Tuesday I stayed home. Missed stupid FCAT Writes.

Wednesday I went back, took my makeup, and then went back home again. D<

TODAY! I lived through a day of school, made up work and two tests, all giddy and happy that I was finally better. Went home and obtained a fever of 102.9. I DON'T SEE THE JUSTICE IN THAT. D;

AND I WON'T BE GOING TOMORROW.

AND WHY CAN'T I GET PAST ARBITER'S GROUNDS IN TWILIGHT PRINCESS? Oh, wait, I know why. BECAUSE I'M A BABY WHEN IT COMES TO SKELETONS COMING TO LIFE.

WRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY!?

</rant>

Red envelopes and great food, what more could you want from CNY at this time of the year?

Oh, and I got my grades up. :]

But anyway, it's the year of the cow! Anyone here a cow, anyone? -SHOT-

So Hatsume Fair is getting closer. >.< But now my friend's mom wants to meet me? WTF? I mean, that's kind of awkward, is it now? (Besides the fact he's a guy, and there's no kind of relationship like that between us.)

My Brawl disk is being faulty so I've got to get a new one. Sorry to all those who wanted to play, I'm too busy for that anyway...

My friend is making his own manga/anime site. http://www.quietactioninc.com/ Go check it out. (I'm an admin by the way)

My thoughts on the new dA profile page? IT'S UBER-FANTASTIC. THANK YOU dA STAFF. ;_;

... I don't really want to talk about Kanda's uniform. I really don't.

I am having commissions on my Gaia account: animehamster. Please help me make some gold! ;]

EDIT: Forgot to post New Year Resolutions. How silly of me.

Resolutions:
1) Go to more cons, I need to be surrounded by more people like meeeee.
2) Try to be less physically violent.
3) Try to be less verbally violent too.
4) PUT MYSELF ON A BUDGET.
5) Try to update my fanfictions more often~

Well, there they are. P:

<sub>I was planning to do this journal later but what the heck, I'll just do it now.

So the year of '08, I couldn't say it was the best year ... but I can't really say it was horrible either. So here's the list of good vs. bad of this year:

Good:
1) Went to my first concert: The Soundtrack of Your Summer
2) Attended the Breaking Dawn release party with my friends (not so much on the book then being with my friends)
3) End of the year field trip for my 7th grade year was excellent
4) Made a ton of new friends
5) Still keep in touch with most of those new friends
6) Went to my first convention: Mizucon!
7) Got my Wii and keyboard
8) The Music Man production was a success!

Bad:
1) The surgery in August was a bitch
2) The recovery time was too fucking long
3) Realized that I wasted too much money on books/video games/misc.
4) People fooled around during rehearsals for Music Man
5) Growing distant with some of my friends
6) My old chorus teacher can go and jump of a cliff
7) My physical therapist is a fucking sadist
8) My back still aches from the surgery that was FOUR MONTHS AGO
9) The anesthesia won't completely be gone from my body until six months AFTER surgery
10) I did lose a friend but realized that she can go be a whore if she wants to be

...

I think the year could have been a hell of a lot better, but I'm not going to complain. Not really looking forward to '09 either. It's just another year closer to our doom...</sub>

Five words to describe today, just five words:

I died in heaven today.

I went to Mizucon today (that's in Miami, FL, U.S.A. for those international/out of state folks) and enjoyed my first con ever.

Went with my friend, kkebaksa, and cosplayed as Reborn from Katekyo Hitman Reborn!. I got a lot of free hugs. -smiles- If anyone else saw me, leave a comment, and I'll get back to you. I took a lot of pictures of the place and cosplayers so I'll post them up later. Sorry, but I won't go tomorrow or Monday either! Really wanted to, but I neither have the money nor the time for it.

But anyway, hope everyone had a great holiday, and I'll update again before New Years.

Winter break starts today, and I start it by getting a cold.

If someone can find any justice in that, then by all means, tell me.

And just to prove my point, I got straight A's which includes my A's for my honors exams (which is a separate grade). -twitches-

But... there is some good news. Next week, I'm going to Mizucon with a friend of mine and hopefully not spend every penny that I have.

Let's see... I'm cosplaying as Reborn from Katekyo Hitman Reborn! and yes, I do have the hat too. -smirks- My aunt is Taiwan used to work for the company/production/whatever it is that dub KHR into Chinese.

Anyway, that's really it for now... >_>

Alas, Black Friday has come to haunt us! (Thus the name of "Black Friday" arrives...)

My dad was up early to get a new digital camera... without a fight, thankfully. So be prepared to see some funny shit soon on my YouTube account, animearies. (Not as in the next few days. I meant weeks or months ... or maybe a year, who knows)

Did anyone else hear about the poor Wal-Mart employee who got trampled? Stupid shoppers who can't be patient... -mutters incoherent curses-

Thanksgiving was okay, I guess. At least until you have to deal with two six-feet tall, over 200 lbs worth of cousins. OTL I managed to escape with only a bruise.

Went to see the Twilight movie for the second time. My friend wanted me to go see it with her and like the great friend I am, I consented and actually lessened my dislike of the movie the second time. Of course, that could be because I was watching it with someone who actually liked it, but whatever.

Went to Best Buy with her too. Played Guitar Hero: World Tour and was impressed with the graphics. Too expensive though, so I enjoyed it as much as I could.

Bought another graphic novel and the book, <u>The Tale of Despereaux</u>. You wouldn't believe that this is my favorite book of all time. I read it when I was only in fourth grade, and I completely fell in love! And they're making it into a movie! I'm very happy at this point.

So I haven't updated my journal for a couple of centuries weeks so here's my...

Rant List!:
1) Weather
2) New Wii
3) Grounded
4) Orchestra
5) School
6) Twilight Movie/Harry Potter Movie
7) Everything Else... -SHOT-

1) I live in South Florida, right? So why is it getting down to the 50's F (or 10's C) here?! I thought I was in the sunshine state for crying out loud. I mean, I love the cold weather and everything, but this is a bit out of the ordinary...

2) Yeah, so I got a new Wii in the place of a new DS game? There's a huge difference in the price there. -coughs- But I got Twilight Princess so I'm happy.

3) And I got grounded from the new Wii for a week. My dad was told about the whole episode where I was up to one in the morning doing my US History project.

4) Went back to orchestra two weeks ago. I just sat in ... doing nothing but following along the music sheets for two and a half hours. -twitches-

5) Still haven't submitted my high school applications.

6) So Twilight movie is number one, huh? Let's see... I used to like the book a lot (not so much anymore, considering the fact that it's an ok book), but I can always wait until it comes out on DVD. So I'm good.

What makes me mad is that the Harry Potter movie is pushed to NEXT SUMMER. Damn it! I wanted to see the HP movie more then the Twilight one.

7) I'm liking the Raconteurs and the White Stripes. They're not bad. Go listen ... Now.

...Why? Actually, I'm on everyday, but it doesn't seem like I am. -_-'

Anyway, my computer is FIXED, hopefully, for good this time.

Getting even more hooked to Asian Kung-Fu Generation lately. Anyone have an explanation for this strange phenomenon? Oh, wait, they're just awesome ... Nevermind.

School is overrated.

Finally finished Inkdeath. It was odd since I didn't complete it in a usually short time that I would have. -ponders about this-

More vocaloid songs to listen to as well...

I'm teaching myself how to play the piano/keyboard. I can't use the pedals if I need it though... For multiple reasons. One being the fact that I only have a keyboard. ;_;

So I mostly just listen by ear and try to hi the right notes. P: Yes, I can also read music too but only the top part because I can't read bass clef. |||OTL

That's pretty much it for now...

Well, here's another holiday coming and going again.

My plan for this year's horror fest is to buy a new sweater (it's getting cold here in South Florida. Unbelievable, I know) and getting a new book for myself. -smiles-

Ah, but my friend was going to come over tomorrow until her madre got sick, so those plans are ruined. -sighs-

Open house on Sunday at a high school I'm thinking about and yes, I am going. Atlantic High School for anyone going to take a look. I might see you there.

Be safe while tricking or treating! (Mainly tricking, I wish you luck on, since I'm mooching off the bags of candy that nonexistent kids in my neighbor will ask for)

...

It broke again.
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<sub>It seems like my computer fixed itself. =3=

Is that even possible?

Oh, good news, I got straight A's this quarter again!
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

Fuck.

You know, I really hate it when your computer suddenly decides to fail on you and break your hard drive. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD (that is non-existent in my name), WHY BREAK ON ME AGAIN?! T_T

I cried for a while before calming down.

So I'm without my laptop for another 2 weeks!? Fuck this, I need an iPhone.</sub>

Note: This is not from my point of view. I was roaming around in my old memories when I happened upon this short story. Deciding that it would make a good addition to my gallery, I decided to post this.

-sigh- What a masochist...

_{I guess you can say it was based off a true event.}

Tragedy

Perhaps revenge was more important to me then getting the truth out, even if the truth was my revenge...

It was around last year that I happened to like this guy. Now the thing is, EVERYONE liked this guy... I liked him because he was intelligent, funny, and very kind. We were good friends too, so I'd rather be friends then to have things awkward between us.

It goes around the school that I'm pretty harsh with guys (which in reality, is true, but I only do it when guys are annoying me which is 95% of the time). So if I confessed ... he would probably just take it as a joke or dare I was sent on to do. Besides the fact that I did confess, he just waved it aside and said that he already knew and smiled like he always did.

This is where everything goes wrong.

I had a friend. A friend I thought would keep every secret to herself and not say a word. She knew I liked him, but she also liked him. Problem is, she was the nicest girl you would ever meet. Or at least that's what she gave the impression of.

She was jealous of me since I was a good student, and I was one of his best friends.

She tells me one day that she was going to try and get him for me. She knew that he already rejected me once, so why try it again?

And this I heard from a reliable source:
She started questioning the guy of what he thought of me.
He said he actually like me.
And she lied about how I hated him.
And he believed her even though knowing my feelings.

The next few days after that happened, the two of them came to school holding hands. I could only watch in hurt as they came even closer. But as they passed me by, it was as if I didn't exist. He started to avoid me, until I had it. I took him aside in the morning to ask him what was wrong, and he told me I hated him.

And then I did the worst thing I could.
I told him I really did hate him.
And he walked away with pain in his eyes.
We still haven't talked since that moment.

The next day they broke up.

I think he regrets walking away from me that day.
I hope he did.
Because I don't.
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Well, that's my story. Depressing, isn't it? So much drama for someone as young as I. I still see him around, but we still don't talk though I catch his eye sometimes.

Why did I lie to him? you ask. Rumors are trivial things. If he truly believed in my feelings, perhaps this wouldn't have turned out so bad. But he never came to talk, and I was hurt. Very badly.

And at that moment, I truly hated him.

Cheated by my so called friend
And cheated on by him
And cheating to myself

It's a tragedy, is it not?

Just a few things before I hit the hay. -SHOT- I wonder if anyone actually uses that phrase anymore. Whatever.

So first things first:

1) CODE GEASS ROCKS. I don't care if I was slow on the uptake, but it rocks. Hard. VERY HARD. Anyway, I can't believe there's not going to be a third season. D: Give us at least another OVA or movie! I cried when I saw the season finale. Cried. I never cry. -sniffs- So yeah, my favorite pairing is either Suzaku/Euphie, Suzaku/Kallen, or Suzaku/Nunnally. God, Suzaku, you're such a pimp. xD

Then again... There's also Lelouch/Everyone. So I guess he's the Uber-Pimp. Like the Uber-Director in Maximum Ride. -snickers- BUT JEEZ, LELOUCH, YOU'RE SUCH A DRAMA QUEEN. D< Even when falling, he has to make it look good. And the whole everybody crying part just kind of hit home. Especially Nunnally crying. YOU WERE ABOUT TO KILL HIM TWO MONTHS EARLIER. MAKE UP YOUR MIND! But WOW are they slow. Lelouch's plan should have been fairly obvious. Even if he is a good actor.

Psh, I'm going to go slap some people in Japan.

2) Paramore wrote a new song for the Twilight movie. It's good. REALLY good. Listen to it. It's called "Decode".

3) School sucks. BALLS.

4) Updates will still be slow. School is making it very hard to do anything besides homework.

5) I never seem to get enough sleep. WRRRRRY??????

6) Jack's Mannequin is my favorite band right now. -smiles-

7) D GRAY MAN IS OVER!? No, just the second season. I heard that the third season should be sometime later this year or next year. Psh, if they really discontinue the anime, I'll be pissed. Even if I do read the manga.

Okay, my rant is over now.

This will not be an update on fanfiction, contrary to other's belief. In fact, this is a SECOND EVER PREVIEW of my original story, Striking Forward. I do hope you enjoy it and my fanfictions will be updates sooner or later (probably later though).

Preface

I guess it was just inevitable.

Maybe it was my fault that we wouldn’t survive this mess. The mess that I created. I should never have gone back for him. If I knew he would have betrayed us like this, it would have been better off if he had died. But my heart had been weaker then. Now disaster had befallen our ‘heroes’. How could I, the number one killer of the group, suddenly go soft? It was unheard of and was never supposed to happen.

The irony was going to kill me one day.

It all started on that night. I could picture it in my mind now. The exact places where the bodies lay. How much blood had been spilled was also imprinted in my memory. I closed my eyes and ignored the rain that camouflaged the flowing tears. My clothes clung to my skin, but I couldn’t care less. After all, he saw everything already, didn’t he?

“Why?!” I shouted at him. My fists clenched together at my sides, as he got closer until he was standing right in front of me. “Why?” I whispered once again. I could smell him. The scent of musk filled my nose and almost clouded my mind. Every fiber of my being was yelling at me to attack. To destroy. To kill. I knew what I wanted.

Revenge.

So why wasn’t my body responding to my thoughts? He looked sad. Almost as if saying he didn’t know why, but he did know. He was ordered to like every other mission he was ordered to do. The thought made adrenaline rush through my veins. I didn’t want to be a puppet anymore. So I ran, and he was told to run after me. His arms slowly came around me, and I stiffened. Tears blurred my vision, and I couldn’t speak, afraid that sobs would come out instead.

“Are you afraid of me?” He asked.

My eyes widened as he questioned me. My jaw clenched, and I bit my cheek.

“No.”

He grabbed me tighter and pulled me even closer to his self. There was a sharp intake of breath, and I realized it was mine.

“Then forgive me.”

I felt one of his hands raise above my back and my eyes closed once again to wait for the blow.

“I’m sorry, Selina.”

The last thing I could remember before blacking out were soft lips on mine.

They tasted of blood, and I chuckled.

“You’re not forgiven.”

End ... For Now

Well, I do hope you enjoyed that! I do plan to write this in the future after I get my other original story, Flightless Flames, finished.

EVERYTHING IN HERE IS MINE. IF I FIND OUT THAT YOU HAVE STOLE THIS FROM ME, NOT ONLY WILL I TAKE OFF THIS PREFACE, BUT I WILL GUT YOUR BRAINS OUT.

Thank you, that is all.

Hmm, it's been a while since I actually posted anything here. -_-' Could it be the fact that I had surgery, therefore incapable of going on the computer? BINGO! Anyway, here's your preview. -mutters-

Chapter 2: Stab My Back

Jacob's Point of View

This couldn't be happening.

When I saw that girl for the first time, everything seemed to be in slow motion. Suddenly, my world was torn apart. The center of that universe got blurry and her face stuck out. Everything would revolve around that person. Gravity pulled me to her, and I knew she was getting closer. My senses were on hyper alert. The surrounding area was clearer then before. My heart pounded in my chest and nothing mattered except that significant human being. It wasn't supposed to happen so often and yet, most of my pack had already met their soul mate.

I had imprinted.

That's when I saw her face again. I fought gravity and escaped before I was completely ensnared. Every footstep I took away from her caused the scenery to blur. The world shattered apart. My entire body was consumed with pain. Imprinting caused a connection to happen between the two. Our connection was almost complete, but I tore it. Now, I was suffering the consequences, and she probably would too. I changed back into my human form so the others wouldn't know. It might be a while before I could change back anyway. I didn't want to forget her. The feelings that I have for her should be enough.

I didn't want to imprint. Even if the pain would disappear. I still wanted these feelings.

My fist smashed the nearby tree and knocked it down. I leaned against the tree behind me, panting, while sliding to the floor. Tears threatened to fall from my eyes as I slowly faded into unconsciousness.

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I'm off ... to bed!

Another preview for those dedicated readers...

Chapter 6: Memories

Hinata’s P.O.V.

It was tearing me apart.

My memory has been returned to me, and I wished it wasn’t. My breath came in short gasps, and I clutched at the sheets that covered my form. Sweat trickled down my brow, and I realized I was running a fever. I was pitiful. The angel of Kindness, reduced to this. I inwardly laughed at myself and thought about how it came to this. But there was another person on my mind.

Naruto.

I knew he hasn’t regained his memories like I had. I would’ve felt it. With a shock, I realized that I was afraid of something. It wasn’t Naruto, it wasn’t God or the Devil either but …

Me.

If my feelings for Naruto came from these memories … then what did that say about me? Was I really in love with him, or was the past angel? Tears prickled my eyes, as I feared for our relationship. That’s when I started to look around me. I was at the hospital. Naruto probably panicked when I fainted and took me here. And there he was. Sleeping so easily, I smiled and let my fingers run through his hair. The pain coursed through my being once again. My hand fled from his body as if burnt by his very presence.

I had to get out of here.

Thankful that I didn’t have an IV in me, I left the hospital in my normal clothes. I could feel it all now. What was there that I didn’t feel before, I felt now. There were other beings here too. I raced through the streets, ignoring the stares I was getting. I didn’t see where I was going, and I rammed into another person. They held me up before I could fall backwards again.

“Hyuuga-san?”

I looked up to see Sasuke towering above me.

“Ah, g-gomen, Uchiha-san.”

His eyes narrowed, and I felt shivers down my spine.

“I thought you were in the hospital- you’re burning up!”

I froze. I didn’t want to go back to the hospital where he was. It was too early, and I was frightened. As if he could read my mind, he relaxed.

“Do you want me to take you to Sakura?”

I nodded fervently. A few minutes later, I was at the front steps of Sakura’s home. Sasuke opened the door using his key (I was going to have to ask about that) and gestured for me to go in. I halted.

The presence of a demon was here.

“Hinata-chan?”

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