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animehamster
16 August 2009 @ 05:57 pm
I've been volunteering.

But for what exactly? Well, I hope that everyone knows about this. It's global news now but if you haven't heard the news, Taiwan has been severely hit by Typhoon Morakot.

Before anyone asks why I care so much, it's because I have family in Taiwan, not to mention I'm a legal citizen there. This typhoon is probably one of the most serious cases for a while. A village, similar to the ones I've been in, has been completely wiped out by a mudslide, burying every resident alive. My family got lucky; they live up north in Hsingchu where there was the least damage.

Some people go through their whole lives without knowing that Taiwan is an actual country. Some people don't care, even if they know. I hate being the person that asks for donations, but it's different this time. My family could have been the ones buried alive.

Now on to the better news: There is a group that's been actively asking for donations, helping out in Taiwan. If you haven't heard of them, they're the Tzu Chi Foundation. They've helped out with the earthquake in China, the tsunami a few years ago; This group responds immediately to international disasters. I've actually been involved with this group for years now, and they are the most kind-hearted people I know. (It's a Buddhist thing, don't ask me. I don't get how people can be so optimistic either)

It's understandable if money is an issue here; I'm just perfectly happy to know that I've spread the news. If you can help though, please head to the groups main web page or just spread the word! If you actually clicked here and read through the entire, depressing story, I truly appreciate it.

After all, Taiwan is my second home.
 
 
Current Mood: determined
 
 
animehamster
11 August 2009 @ 07:40 pm
IC;
nation:
Tibet

name:
His birth name was Nyima Dorje but after joining a Buddhist monastery, his name was changed to Anil Gephel, which is his secret name. When introducing himself, he'll use his birth name instead. (The whole naming concept just confused me so sorry if there's a lot of mistakes here)
nickname(s):
He's called Nima by Kim, who is a frequent visitor to the temple.
age: 28
date of birth: January 11, 1981 (Date of the Mongol-Tibet Treaty)
hometown:
Lhasa, Tibet
occupation:
He's a lama, or Buddhist teacher, at the temple on Morong Street.
residence:
He resides within one of the temple rooms for the Buddhists.
family:
His mother passed away when he was nine after giving birth to his younger sister. His father and sister do not reside in Liberty.

first impression:
"How's the moon out in broad daylight?! Oh, no, wait, that's someone's head..."

1. Nyima's family moved to the US when he was ten after his mother passed away due to their family being under privileged as peasants in Tibet. His father, deciding that he wouldn't put his family in danger like that again, relocated the family to America (more specifically Michigan where all the other Asians seem to be). His father grew distant after the incident and left Nima to take care of his sister for the most part.

2. He is a Buddhist monk and residing lama at the Buddhist temple in Huayuan. It wasn't until he was 22 that he had become devoted the monk's lifestyle. Nima had always been interested in the religion, but never did more than go pray at the temple until he had an accident that led him to lead a humble life. He also may be a monk now... but he did have his, um, earthly pleasures before then. Now, he's completely devoted and has pledged the rest of his life to be pure and free of temptations.

3. He's incredibly kind and will always let people cut him in lines and hand you his coat when it's below freezing outside if you forgot yours at home. The philosophy behind it is to do a good deed whenever possible. Of course, it's not like he'll let you walk all over him. He only seems to be easy to take advantage of because of his kind nature.

4. Always dressed in his maroon colored robes, Nyima is pretty easy to spot along with his shaved head. He doesn't really mind it when people stare, but he does get slightly irked when asked why he's wearing PJs outside. It usually leads into a lengthy debate on whether he's really dressed in sleep wear or not. Worry not though, he doesn't get physical because he's a peaceful monk, you know?

5. The year that he decided to become a monk, Nima also decided to go on a pilgrimage to East Asia and visit all the different Buddhist temples in the region. Through this five year period, he went from China to Taiwan, from there on to Japan, Korea, and other countries that had a major temple. He's now able to speak in multiple languages but he'll mostly talk in English, Tibetan, or Chinese.

6. A monk’s patience is extremely difficult to trifle with. You could annoy Nyima for hours straight and all he’d do is nod and smile and probably mistake you for being mentally retarded. But when do you get to the point where he’s about to snap, you might want to run. Very far away. Or you’ll feel the fury of a very pissed off monk. Doesn’t sound like the typical stereotype of a Tibetan monk, does it? Not that I’ve ever gotten a holy man pissed, what makes you think that...

7. After years of meditation and mastering the ability to sense the many things around him, Nyima could walk through a busy street, blinded, and still be able to get to his destination. No matter what methods people use to try and get past him without being sensed, it would be impossible if you were in his range. This has caused a lot of rumors about him being ESP, but they're not true. Honestly. He's not psychic, geez

8. Nyima has a soft spot for animals and will cringe ever so slightly when he sees fur on people's clothes or when people eat meat/poultry/etc. He's very tolerant of these and won't go crazy like PETA, but try to keep in mind to not wear or eat anything related to animals around him.

9. Back to the days Nima's childhood, being in the same neighborhood as the other Asians meant that he was 'close' to them when they were kids. He was on fairly good terms with Kiku when they were younger, seeing that the two of them weren't exactly fans of Yong Soo back in the day (Nyima's patience works wonders when dealing with the Korean). He actually didn't communicate with any of them after college, seeing that they all went on their separate ways, but he and Kiku still have one thing in common...

10. They both dislike Yao. Nima's and Yao's parents weren't exactly on great terms due to the political issues of their native countries, and the feeling transferred to their kids, but they were tolerant of each other. Yet, all 'good' things were meant to come to an end. Nyima had ended up being the one to bring Yao his homework (same age, same grade) after the Chinese missed school one day. Yao's mother had (hesitantly) let him up, only for Nyima to discover Yao in a... dress. This resulted in Yao continuously threatening the Tibetan that if he told anyone of the incident, Nima wouldn't live to see the next day.

Which of course, resulted in horrible relations between the two. The two of them are still at odds with each other (being mostly one-sided on Yao's part since Nyima never planned to tell anyone), and they haven't talked since he left for his pilgrimage.

Secrets:
a) Even though Nyima will never admit it in his lifetime, he's actually really afraid of Yao. After their incident, Nima developed a fear of the Chinese man and part of the reason for heading on his pilgrimage was to completely avoid the man all together. He resents facing him again, knowing that things will most likely not end well.

b) When he was 21, Nyima had been on the way home, and he got involved with a horrible car accident. At this time, his father had taken his sister back to Tibet to visit relatives so there was no one who would stay him in the hospital while he recuperated... but he could vaguely remember someone at his side the entire time. His memory of the person was vague and when he asked the nurses who had looked after him, their description was of a female Asian, which strangely described a certain man. Nyima never had the guts to ask Yao about this and to this day, he still doesn't know who was at his bedside.

c) Yes, hard to believe, but Nima wasn't always a monk. He did lose his v-card in college, which all but marked him as sin-free. That accident from (b) was actually caused by a night of drinking with friends, and it was because of that, that he decided he would lead a life free of temptations. He has long grown out of carnal desires and for the thirst of alcohol, but his past will forever haunt his future as a monk.
 
 
animehamster
13 July 2009 @ 04:24 pm
I went to Yasumicon yesterday~ :] It was pretty Epic Win, especially since I got together with a bunch of friends from some other cons!

I forgot to bring my camera so no photos from me. =3= There might be some at JD's or MishaSu's page on deviantArt... -shrugs-

Well, the other good news is that I didn't completely spend all of my money. I only spent $5! It's a new record!! xD

Sunday's Events

I met up with Axel, Roxas, and Dem in the parking lot (convenient), and we headed in together. We kind of loafed around near the registration desk until we met up with Sasuke (by the way, names are used by the contexts of their cosplays. I guess it's just easier that way...) and some other people.

We headed up towards an empty classroom (for the lulz) and just lounged around for a good hour. I guess Ax got hungry since we all went back (too bad the buffet was already closed) and had to settle for good, microwavable food. It never fails, no matter how much my mother says otherwise. -sighs- It was around this time that I met up with [info]kurohaneshizumi! I haven't seen her since Mizucon so it was great to meet up with her again~

After that, we went to see some Cosplay Improvs (I'm not exactly sure what it was actually called. It was my second time seeing something like that), and the Jack Sparrow was just hilarious! The only one who was better was the Ritsuka (if you weren't there, you had missed the best thing ever! xD) and wow, did he crack up the audience big time.

We hung out at the dealer's room for a bit after that, took a group photo, then it was about tie to head home. P: I sort of wish I was there Saturday too, but one day is better then none. :]
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Current Mood: content
Current Music: "Standing in Your Way" by Hatsune Miku
 
 
animehamster
Straight A's and exams are all passed.

Whoopie.

Today was the last day, and I got my yearbook signed to the brim. Hmm, lots of people to call over the summer.

Summer school for my high school will begin two weeks from now. Joy. Optional summer school will be so much fun.

But the good news includes the fact that FSC is only three days away! I'll be there near the opening time so watch out for me~ :]

It's going to be Kanda again because I haven't decided on a new cosplay yet...

That's about it for now.
 
 
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: "Gives You Hell" by The All-American Rejects
 
 
animehamster
23 May 2009 @ 09:52 pm
It's been more then a month since I updated, sorry.

Anyway, it's official. Most guys are just full of bullshit these days. I've never done anything to this jerk, and he has the nerve to 'joke around' when it's not funny. Whatever, he better not talk to me again.

Putting aside the crappy news, our school put on Bye Bye Birdie Wednesday~ I helped out by playing live music with my violin along with my friend who played the piano. We got great seats too since we were right in front of the stage.

School will be over soon, thankfully. Just another seven days to go until summer break, and that reminds me, FSC is in another ten days... Alas, finals are still in the way. -frowns-

I'm grateful for three day weekends.
 
 
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: "The Liar's Parade" by Miku Hatsune
 
 
animehamster
11 April 2009 @ 05:07 pm
Well, it sucks. Sort of.

Yesterday was a planned trip to the beach for a BBQ~ It was great until this old, rotten lady come to the door and starts screaming at me about one of our cars blocking the sidewalk. My mom went out to explain that we were allowed to do so since we talked to the guy in charge of that already.

The fucking bitch won't listen and rudely cast my mom off.

A little while later, we were ready to head to the beach when we saw our neighbor, who heard the obnoxious woman, and we found out that the car blocking the sidewalk was keyed.

KEYED.

We confronted her later when she was coming back from the clubhouse, and my cousin told her it doesn't take brains to walk around (and he's right). She said she was allergic to ants.

...

Not every patch of grass has ants, and people are allergic to ant bites, not the ants themselves. SHE WAS WEARING SHOES, SHE'LL BE FINE.

Then once again, my mom (too nice to snap like my cousin, dad, and me) tried to explain and once she mentioned our car getting keyed, she turned nice.

Obvious, much?

She said that a tree branch must have done it- NO FUCKING WAY WILL A TREE BRANCH SCRATCH A CAR ALMOST THREE FEET ACROSS THE HOOD OF A CAR UNLESS MY DAD WAS DRUNK WHILE DRIVING HOME FROM HIS TEACHING JOB.

Oh, and once the police got into the conversation, she was outta there.

But we went to the beach anyway and still had a good time (my cousin was the only one in the water). I went swimming for the first time after my surgery today~ I can still swim as well as before (but I get tired easily)!

Got a new game, Okami~ Best thing in a long time, really.

And I heard that she badgered the previous residents about their lawn. THEY WERE ABOUT 90. GIVE IT A BREAK, BITCH.

New dragon egg things. Kind of fun.
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Current Mood: drained
Current Music: "Adolescence" by Rin/Len Kagamine
 
 
animehamster
21 March 2009 @ 08:13 pm
Hatsume Fair was awesome~ I cosplayed Yuu Kanda from D. Gray Man and won first place in the intermediate division... :3 My second cosplay was a grand success!

Saw a ton of my friends there, and I only spent four dollars on a poster. :D That's a huge difference from the $60+ I spent at Mizucon~

My frown sucks but whatever. :] I'll be taking more detailed and better photos


 
 
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: "Toeto" by Megurine Luka
 
 
animehamster
06 March 2009 @ 07:43 am
Hey, if you haven't read the latest Naruto, Bleach, or D. Gray Man chapter, then don't read, ne?

SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER SPOILER



Naruto: Tsunade's crystal has been destroyed, and Yamamoto is going to the rescue? Looks like Pein still has some crack super Mary-Sue powers up his sleeve.

And I save the best new for last... HINATA IS NOT DEAD. YET. And Sakura could be the one to save her.

Bleach: Ichigo got his ass kicked, and now he's going to die. With Orihime and Ishida watching. And Number 4 has some issues. You don't blow a damn hole in the place where someone's heart is. Maybe we should get him to see a therapist.

DGM: IT'S FINALLY BAAAAAAAAAACK. -jumps for joy- The little bratty kid can now possess akuma and turn them into... innocence? C'mon, Hoshino, please explain what this means for our heroes?

</spoiler>

So with other things, school is a bitch as always, and I'm still sick. That's it then.

...

Go. Do something more productive. LEAVE.
 
 
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: "Laugh Away" by YUI
 
 
animehamster
12 February 2009 @ 07:46 pm
<rant>

This past week has been absolute torture.

It turns out that I was sick on Saturday night, and so I ate some Tylenol crap...

Monday, first thing that happened when I got to school, went to the nurse, BEEP, YOU HAVE A FEVER. GO HOME. -twitches-

Tuesday I stayed home. Missed stupid FCAT Writes.

Wednesday I went back, took my makeup, and then went back home again. D<

TODAY! I lived through a day of school, made up work and two tests, all giddy and happy that I was finally better. Went home and obtained a fever of 102.9. I DON'T SEE THE JUSTICE IN THAT. D;

AND I WON'T BE GOING TOMORROW.

AND WHY CAN'T I GET PAST ARBITER'S GROUNDS IN TWILIGHT PRINCESS? Oh, wait, I know why. BECAUSE I'M A BABY WHEN IT COMES TO SKELETONS COMING TO LIFE.

WRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY!?

</rant>
 
 
Current Mood: irritated
Current Music: "Hysteria" by Muse
 
 
animehamster
26 January 2009 @ 07:54 pm
Red envelopes and great food, what more could you want from CNY at this time of the year?

Oh, and I got my grades up. :]

But anyway, it's the year of the cow! Anyone here a cow, anyone? -SHOT-

So Hatsume Fair is getting closer. >.< But now my friend's mom wants to meet me? WTF? I mean, that's kind of awkward, is it now? (Besides the fact he's a guy, and there's no kind of relationship like that between us.)

My Brawl disk is being faulty so I've got to get a new one. Sorry to all those who wanted to play, I'm too busy for that anyway...

My friend is making his own manga/anime site. http://www.quietactioninc.com/ Go check it out. (I'm an admin by the way)

My thoughts on the new dA profile page? IT'S UBER-FANTASTIC. THANK YOU dA STAFF. ;_;

... I don't really want to talk about Kanda's uniform. I really don't.
 
 
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: "Dark Blue" by Jack's Mannequin
 
 
animehamster
31 December 2008 @ 08:14 am
I am having commissions on my Gaia account: animehamster. Please help me make some gold! ;]

EDIT: Forgot to post New Year Resolutions. How silly of me.

Resolutions:
1) Go to more cons, I need to be surrounded by more people like meeeee.
2) Try to be less physically violent.
3) Try to be less verbally violent too.
4) PUT MYSELF ON A BUDGET.
5) Try to update my fanfictions more often~

Well, there they are. P:

I was planning to do this journal later but what the heck, I'll just do it now.

So the year of '08, I couldn't say it was the best year ... but I can't really say it was horrible either. So here's the list of good vs. bad of this year:

Good:
1) Went to my first concert: The Soundtrack of Your Summer
2) Attended the Breaking Dawn release party with my friends (not so much on the book then being with my friends)
3) End of the year field trip for my 7th grade year was excellent
4) Made a ton of new friends
5) Still keep in touch with most of those new friends
6) Went to my first convention: Mizucon!
7) Got my Wii and keyboard
8) The Music Man production was a success!

Bad:
1) The surgery in August was a bitch
2) The recovery time was too fucking long
3) Realized that I wasted too much money on books/video games/misc.
4) People fooled around during rehearsals for Music Man
5) Growing distant with some of my friends
6) My old chorus teacher can go and jump of a cliff
7) My physical therapist is a fucking sadist
8) My back still aches from the surgery that was FOUR MONTHS AGO
9) The anesthesia won't completely be gone from my body until six months AFTER surgery
10) I did lose a friend but realized that she can go be a whore if she wants to be

...

I think the year could have been a hell of a lot better, but I'm not going to complain. Not really looking forward to '09 either. It's just another year closer to our doom...
 
 
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Sober" by Kelly Clarkson
 
 
animehamster
27 December 2008 @ 07:06 pm
Five words to describe today, just five words:

I died in heaven today.

I went to Mizucon today (that's in Miami, FL, U.S.A. for those international/out of state folks) and enjoyed my first con ever.

Went with my friend, kkebaksa, and cosplayed as Reborn from Katekyo Hitman Reborn!. I got a lot of free hugs. -smiles- If anyone else saw me, leave a comment, and I'll get back to you. I took a lot of pictures of the place and cosplayers so I'll post them up later. Sorry, but I won't go tomorrow or Monday either! Really wanted to, but I neither have the money nor the time for it.

But anyway, hope everyone had a great holiday, and I'll update again before New Years.
 
 
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: "Tiffany Blews" by Fall Out Boy
 
 
animehamster
21 December 2008 @ 11:25 pm
Winter break starts today, and I start it by getting a cold.

If someone can find any justice in that, then by all means, tell me.

And just to prove my point, I got straight A's which includes my A's for my honors exams (which is a separate grade). -twitches-

But... there is some good news. Next week, I'm going to Mizucon with a friend of mine and hopefully not spend every penny that I have.

Let's see... I'm cosplaying as Reborn from Katekyo Hitman Reborn! and yes, I do have the hat too. -smirks- My aunt is Taiwan used to work for the company/production/whatever it is that dub KHR into Chinese.

Anyway, that's really it for now... >_>
 
 
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: "I Caught Myself" by Paramore
 
 
animehamster
28 November 2008 @ 09:55 pm
Alas, Black Friday has come to haunt us! (Thus the name of "Black Friday" arrives...)

My dad was up early to get a new digital camera... without a fight, thankfully. So be prepared to see some funny shit soon on my YouTube account, animearies. (Not as in the next few days. I meant weeks or months ... or maybe a year, who knows)

Did anyone else hear about the poor Wal-Mart employee who got trampled? Stupid shoppers who can't be patient... -mutters incoherent curses-

Thanksgiving was okay, I guess. At least until you have to deal with two six-feet tall, over 200 lbs worth of cousins. OTL I managed to escape with only a bruise.

Went to see the Twilight movie for the second time. My friend wanted me to go see it with her and like the great friend I am, I consented and actually lessened my dislike of the movie the second time. Of course, that could be because I was watching it with someone who actually liked it, but whatever.

Went to Best Buy with her too. Played Guitar Hero: World Tour and was impressed with the graphics. Too expensive though, so I enjoyed it as much as I could.

Bought another graphic novel and the book, <u>The Tale of Despereaux</u>. You wouldn't believe that this is my favorite book of all time. I read it when I was only in fourth grade, and I completely fell in love! And they're making it into a movie! I'm very happy at this point.
 
 
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: "Shadow of the Day" By Linkin Park
 
 
animehamster
23 November 2008 @ 05:24 pm
So I haven't updated my journal for a couple of centuries weeks so here's my...

Rant List!:
1) Weather
2) New Wii
3) Grounded
4) Orchestra
5) School
6) Twilight Movie/Harry Potter Movie
7) Everything Else... -SHOT-

1) I live in South Florida, right? So why is it getting down to the 50's F (or 10's C) here?! I thought I was in the sunshine state for crying out loud. I mean, I love the cold weather and everything, but this is a bit out of the ordinary...

2) Yeah, so I got a new Wii in the place of a new DS game? There's a huge difference in the price there. -coughs- But I got Twilight Princess so I'm happy.

3) And I got grounded from the new Wii for a week. :iconotlplz: My dad was told about the whole episode where I was up to one in the morning doing my US History project.

4) Went back to orchestra two weeks ago. I just sat in ... doing nothing but following along the music sheets for two and a half hours. -twitches-

5) Still haven't submitted my high school applications. :iconorzplz:

6) So Twilight movie is number one, huh? Let's see... I used to like the book a lot (not so much anymore, considering the fact that it's an ok book), but I can always wait until it comes out on DVD. So I'm good.

What makes me mad is that the Harry Potter movie is pushed to NEXT SUMMER. Damn it! I wanted to see the HP movie more then the Twilight one.

7) I'm liking the Raconteurs and the White Stripes. They're not bad. Go listen ... Now.
 
 
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: "Black Math" by The White Stripes
 
 
animehamster
08 November 2008 @ 10:55 pm
...Why? Actually, I'm on everyday, but it doesn't seem like I am. -_-'

Anyway, my computer is FIXED, hopefully, for good this time.

Getting even more hooked to Asian Kung-Fu Generation lately. Anyone have an explanation for this strange phenomenon? Oh, wait, they're just awesome ... Nevermind.

School is overrated.

Finally finished Inkdeath. It was odd since I didn't complete it in a usually short time that I would have. -ponders about this-

More vocaloid songs to listen to as well...

I'm teaching myself how to play the piano/keyboard. I can't use the pedals if I need it though... For multiple reasons. One being the fact that I only have a keyboard. ;_;

So I mostly just listen by ear and try to hi the right notes. P: Yes, I can also read music too but only the top part because I can't read bass clef. |||OTL

That's pretty much it for now...
 
 
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: "Butterfly" by Asian Kung-Fu Generation
 
 
animehamster
01 November 2008 @ 12:19 am
Well, here's another holiday coming and going again.

My plan for this year's horror fest is to buy a new sweater (it's getting cold here in South Florida. Unbelievable, I know) and getting a new book for myself. -smiles-

Ah, but my friend was going to come over tomorrow until her madre got sick, so those plans are ruined. -sighs-

Open house on Sunday at a high school I'm thinking about and yes, I am going. Atlantic High School for anyone going to take a look. I might see you there.

Be safe while tricking or treating! (Mainly tricking, I wish you luck on, since I'm mooching off the bags of candy that nonexistent kids in my neighbor will ask for)
 
 
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Last Night, Good Night" by Miku Hatsune
 
 
animehamster
21 October 2008 @ 09:55 pm
...

It broke again.
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It seems like my computer fixed itself. =3=

Is that even possible?

Oh, good news, I got straight A's this quarter again! :w00t!:
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

Fuck.

You know, I really hate it when your computer suddenly decides to fail on you and break your hard drive. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD (that is non-existent in my name), WHY BREAK ON ME AGAIN?! T_T

I cried for a while before calming down.

So I'm without my laptop for another 2 weeks!? Fuck this, I need an iPhone.

 
 
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: "Melt" by Rin/Len Kagamine
 
 
animehamster
11 October 2008 @ 11:46 pm
Note: This is not from my point of view. I was roaming around in my old memories when I happened upon this short story. Deciding that it would make a good addition to my gallery, I decided to post this.

-sigh- What a masochist...

I guess you can say it was based off a true event.

Tragedy

Perhaps revenge was more important to me then getting the truth out, even if the truth was my revenge...

It was around last year that I happened to like this guy. Now the thing is, EVERYONE liked this guy... I liked him because he was intelligent, funny, and very kind. We were good friends too, so I'd rather be friends then to have things awkward between us.

It goes around the school that I'm pretty harsh with guys (which in reality, is true, but I only do it when guys are annoying me which is 95% of the time). So if I confessed ... he would probably just take it as a joke or dare I was sent on to do. Besides the fact that I did confess, he just waved it aside and said that he already knew and smiled like he always did.

This is where everything goes wrong.

I had a friend. A friend I thought would keep every secret to herself and not say a word. She knew I liked him, but she also liked him. Problem is, she was the nicest girl you would ever meet. Or at least that's what she gave the impression of.

She was jealous of me since I was a good student, and I was one of his best friends.

She tells me one day that she was going to try and get him for me. She knew that he already rejected me once, so why try it again?

And this I heard from a reliable source:
She started questioning the guy of what he thought of me.
He said he actually like me.
And she lied about how I hated him.
And he believed her even though knowing my feelings.

The next few days after that happened, the two of them came to school holding hands. I could only watch in hurt as they came even closer. But as they passed me by, it was as if I didn't exist. He started to avoid me, until I had it. I took him aside in the morning to ask him what was wrong, and he told me I hated him.

And then I did the worst thing I could.
I told him I really did hate him.
And he walked away with pain in his eyes.
We still haven't talked since that moment.

The next day they broke up.

I think he regrets walking away from me that day.
I hope he did.
Because I don't.
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Well, that's my story. Depressing, isn't it? So much drama for someone as young as I. I still see him around, but we still don't talk though I catch his eye sometimes.

Why did I lie to him? you ask. Rumors are trivial things. If he truly believed in my feelings, perhaps this wouldn't have turned out so bad. But he never came to talk, and I was hurt. Very badly.

And at that moment, I truly hated him.

Cheated by my so called friend
And cheated on by him
And cheating to myself

It's a tragedy, is it not?

 
 
Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: Love Is War by Miku Hatsune
 
 
animehamster
05 October 2008 @ 08:45 pm
Just a few things before I hit the hay. -SHOT- I wonder if anyone actually uses that phrase anymore. Whatever.

So first things first:

1) CODE GEASS ROCKS. I don't care if I was slow on the uptake, but it rocks. Hard. VERY HARD. Anyway, I can't believe there's not going to be a third season. D: Give us at least another OVA or movie! I cried when I saw the season finale. Cried. I never cry. -sniffs- So yeah, my favorite pairing is either Suzaku/Euphie, Suzaku/Kallen, or Suzaku/Nunnally. God, Suzaku, you're such a pimp. xD

Then again... There's also Lelouch/Everyone. So I guess he's the Uber-Pimp. Like the Uber-Director in Maximum Ride. -snickers- BUT JEEZ, LELOUCH, YOU'RE SUCH A DRAMA QUEEN. D< Even when falling, he has to make it look good. And the whole everybody crying part just kind of hit home. Especially Nunnally crying. YOU WERE ABOUT TO KILL HIM TWO MONTHS EARLIER. MAKE UP YOUR MIND! But WOW are they slow. Lelouch's plan should have been fairly obvious. Even if he is a good actor.

Psh, I'm going to go slap some people in Japan.

2) Paramore wrote a new song for the Twilight movie. It's good. REALLY good. Listen to it. It's called "Decode".

3) School sucks. BALLS.

4) Updates will still be slow. School is making it very hard to do anything besides homework.

5) I never seem to get enough sleep. WRRRRRY??????

6) Jack's Mannequin is my favorite band right now. -smiles-

7) D GRAY MAN IS OVER!? No, just the second season. I heard that the third season should be sometime later this year or next year. Psh, if they really discontinue the anime, I'll be pissed. Even if I do read the manga.

Okay, my rant is over now.
 
 
Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: "Decode" by Paramore
 
 
 
 

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